Jemaah/Usrah : The Old Vs The New

ASSALAMUALAIKUM WARRAHMATULLAH HIWABARAKATUH

SELAMAT SEJAHTERA

i took tonight opportunity to be with my friends from another usrah, my previous usrah
its been some time since i was with them
eventhough, initially i was a little bit skeptic about the idea of hanging out.
and my suspicion was right...
the hanging out is actually to listen to a talk about tahuluf siyasi.
initially, i was aback about the idea, but i just went with it.
maybe could get something out of the talk...

as in a the poster, the talk was a little restaurant, beside a busy road
hence, with the sounds of cars and bikes from the road, chairs and fork clanging, i only managed to grasp 10% from the talk
but its better something rather than nothing.



we then head back to have drinks.
we talk about the past, the present and out planing for the upcoming future.
and we also talk about our usrah and jemaah.
and that point, i chose to listen rather than talk so much.
just answer questions, simply rather than elaborately.

he asked me how i am right now, which among the questions i rather not asnwered, and i did not answered.
because i was a little bit ashamed of myself.
reason wise is that, i was still the same
i try to compare between the old and the new
what actually happen way back then and now

he said i was lucky, because i manage to see and experience both usrah/jemaah
rather than being in one only
honestly, when he asked me about the new usrah/jemaah
i was about to answered that i am following usrah but that doesn't qualify me called myself a jemaah member.
i'm not qualify enough
i am a part of them but not a part of them
i joined them but i didnt join them
i left the old but not to enter a new one, just to follow, to understand and to make myself better in a sense that i would not become a fitnah to my own religion.

i dont know where i'm going with this post...
maybe you guys could find what i actually trying to talk about...

Ps.

Brother AG teaches me to remember [by heart and soul] this particular du'a...
Nabi Yunus du'a

لاَ إِلَهَ إِلاَّ أَنتَ ، سُبْحَانَكَ إِنِّي كُنْتُ مِنَ الظَّالِمِينَ
 Laa ilaaha illa anta. Subhaanaka, innii kuntu minaz zhaalimiin

“Tiada Tuhan melainkan Engkau (ya Allah)! Maha Suci Engkau (daripada melakukan aniaya, tolongkanlah daku)! Sesungguhnya aku adalah dari orang-orang yang menganiaya diri sendiri”
(QS Al-Anbiya’ : 87).

Jazzakalah Khairan Kathira